is the new year here yet....??

The kids had a great Christmas; they got great gifts and spent time with family.

I am ready for this year to be over. I have done so many things that I never thought I would do. I guess they are a learning experience. I have been in love with someone but I guess it was a one sided love. I have learned to let go of some things I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to believe the things that had been said to me about the person that I loved. But they are true, so now I really need to move on, I have said in previous posts that I have moved on but I didn’t. Once he would call me and say the right things i let myself be dragged back in to his web of lies, so he could use me for his benefit. But i can’t blame him i can only blame myself. By the way he is living his life I feel that the life we shared together once was all a lie. I wonder how many things he did behind my back. He is 24 years old and is "dating" a 15 year old. How sick is that. This is the father of my kids, how pathetic. The age difference is not what bugs me, but at 15 she has no idea.....

I have been given insight about myself and the things I have done. I need to work on myself and making myself stronger.